Love that I let go

I had this boyfriend who I really loved. Even though he wasn’t my first boyfriend to me it seemed like he was. How I met him was very unusual. Not many girls get with their best friend's brother, but this girl did. I remember when I saw him it was love at first sight. When we first met we didn’t right away start a relationship instead it grew naturally. We started talking and became good friends.

Our love started when he told his sister he liked me. I was shocked to hear that because I thought he only saw me as a friend. I knew I felt something for him but didn’t think he also felt something too. We soon got together the funny thing is that his sister was also with his best friend. So we would always go out all four. I enjoyed spending time with my best friend but also my boyfriend I felt like I had really found the guy I wanted.

Everything seemed to be going fine until his sister got dumped by his best friend. That’s when everything started because no longer could we go out as four, his sister was very depressed so she never felt like going out. We tried as much as we could to not let that affect our relationship, But that’s when I started to doubt about him.

Since we were not in the same grade. I didn’t see what he would do behind my back. I soon found out that a girl that hung out with（与……出去玩） us also felt something for him. I started to feel jealous（嫉妒的） because they had most of their classes together. I remember asking him if he felt anything for her. He answered me no that he only had eyes for me. But I would see how she would look at him that would burn me up with jealousy. I started to ask him more often what he really thought of her. And he would always answer me the same thing.

Until one day he finally got tired of me telling him over and over again and our relationship ended. I cried so much because I knew I loved him and up till today I still do. I remember telling him it was best for us to be separated, he just hug me and gave the last kiss.

That day when I got home I cried so much till my eyes go swollen（肿大的）. The next day his sister told me he had cried too. That I was the first girl he truly loved. And he told her he would never forget me and everything we shared. That made me realizes that he really did love me.

Now that we both go to different schools we no longer see each other. Once in a while when we see each other he'll just look at me with sad eyes and walk away. His sister told me that that’s because I hurt him a lot. I know it was my fault for letting him go for not trusting him. Sometimes I wish we could start all over and I know nothing would be the same. Because just like he told his sister he would never forget me. I know also that I never forget him either. Hell always is my guy I love and he'll always be in my heart.