In Antigua
by Kerri Webster "In Antigua I am famous. I am bathed in jasmine and pressed with warm stones." -Carnival Cruise ad in the New Yorker In Albuquerque, on the other hand, I am infamous; children throw stones and the elderly whisper behind their hands. In Juneau, I am glacial, a cool blue where anyone can bathe for a price. In Rio I am neither exalted nor defamed; I walk the streets and nothing makes sense, voices garbled, something about electricity, something about peonies and cheap wool. In Prague I am as fabulous as Napoleon and everyone knows it. They give me a horse and I tell them this horse will be buried with me, I tell them I will call the horse either Andromeda or Murphy and all applaud wildly. In Montreal I am paler than I am in Toronto. In Istanbul I trip over cracks in the sidewalk and no one rushes to take my elbow, to say Miss or brew strong tea for a poultice. In Sydney they talk about my arrival for days. I sit outside the opera house waiting for miracles, and when none occur in a fortnight it's Ecuador, where the old gods include the small scythes of my fingernails in their rituals and I learn that anything can ferment, given opportunity, given terra cotta. In Paris I'm up all night. Off the Gold Coast, I marry a reverend who swears that pelicans are god's birds and numbers them fervently, meanwhile whistling. Near Bucharest I go all invisible, also clammy, also way more earnest than I ever was in Memphis. For three Sundays I wander skinny side streets saying amphora, amphora. |