《园丁集-41 I LONG TO》——泰戈尔

诗人| 泰戈尔 译者| 冰心

I long to speak the deepest words I have to say to you;

but I dare not, for fear you should laugh.

That is why I laugh at myself and shatter my secret in jest.

I make light of my pain, afraid you should do so.

我想对你说出我要说的最深的话语，我不敢，我怕你哂笑.

因此我嘲笑自己，把我的秘密在玩笑中打碎。

我把我的痛苦说得轻松，因为怕你会这样做。

I long to tell you the truest words I have to say to you,

but I dare not, being afraid that you would not believe them.

That is why I disguise them in untruth,

saying the contrary of what I mean.

I make my pain appear absurd, afraid that you should do so.

我想对你说出我要说的最真的话语，我不敢，我怕你不信。

因此我弄假成真,说出和我的真心相反的话。

我把我的痛苦说的可笑，因为我怕你会这样做。

I long to use the most precious words I have for you;

but I dare not, fearing I should not be paid with like value.

That is why I gave you hard names and boast of my callous strength.

I hurt you, for fear you should never know any pain.

我想用最宝贵的名词来形容你，我不敢，我怕得不到相当的酬报。

因此我给你安上苛刻的名字，而夸示我的硬骨。

我伤害你，因为怕你永远不知道我的痛苦。

I long to sit silent by you;

but I dare not lest my heart come out at my lips.

That is why I prattle and chatter lightly and hide my heart behind words.

I rudely handle my pain, for fear you should do so.

我渴望静默地坐在你地身旁，我不敢，怕我的心会跳到我的唇上。

因此我轻松地说东道西，把我的心藏在语言的后面。

我粗暴地对待我的痛苦，因为我怕你会这样做。

I long to go away from your side;

but I dare not, for fear my cowardice should become known to you.

That is why I hold my head high and carelessly come into your presence.

Constant from your eyes keep my pain fresh forever.

我渴望从你身边走开，我不敢，怕你看出我的懦怯。

因此我随随便便地昂着头走到你面前。

从你眼里频频掷来的刺激，使我痛苦永远新鲜。