251 Well, after you said it... 252 ...I realized I was... 253 ...scared. 254 What exactly scared you? 255 For weeks before the accident I was having the same... 256 ...fantasy over and over again. 257 I even wrote about it. 258 The woman's driving in the car, the man's making her come. 259 She drives off the road, the man's killed. 260 I feel like maybe I made it all happen. 261 That's why I'm here. 262 Are you saying you'd like to go into treatment? 263 Yeah. 264 Well, I think that's a very good idea. 265 I wouldn't be able to treat you, but I'd be happy to refer you to a colleague. 266 Why can't you treat me? 267 It's not advisable for a doctor who's done a forensic evaluation... 268 ...to then become that person's therapist. 269 Why not? 270 Therapy requires a great deal of trust, which is difficult for most people. 271 It's best to start with a clean slate. 272 You mean you don't trust me. 273 What I said about you at the hearing must have seemed very negative. 274 I'm sure you've got feelings about that. 275 I'd be happy referring you to another doctor. 276 This is Dr. Milena Gardosh. She has a clinic here in London. 277 You want to know the truth? 278 The reason I agreed to the evaluation was because I thought it would be fun. 279 I never... 280 I never talked to anyone who... 281 My patient's here. 282 What do I owe you? 283 You don't owe me anything. 284 But if you'd like to call Dr. Gardosh, I'm sure she can help you. 285 I don't shop around. 286 Like you said, trust is very hard to come by. 287 I was hoping I might find it with you. 288 Listen, why don't we schedule another meeting. 289 And then we can talk about this when we're not so rushed. 290 You look different today. More relaxed. 291 The more nervous I am, the more relaxed people think I am. 292 I wanted to talk about something you brought up last Wednesday. 293 You said before the accident... 294 ...you had fantasies of sexual excitement and driving off the road. 295 Do you often have fantasies like that? 296 I have fantasies all the time. 297 Fantasies involving violence, death? 298 People die in my novels. 299 I have to think of new and interesting ways to kill them. 300 What happens when you don't take risks? |